If the pants don't fit, you musta quit!

Sad that most people won't laugh at that OJ reference...because you weren't born yet. But a few of you might have laughed a lot, so...worth it.

My "skinny" pants don't fit anymore. But take heart everyone! Life goes on whether you lose weight or gain weight, and that has been a nice lesson I am learning.

I am obsessive about my weight. I am obsessive about what I eat. I am obsessive about food, and my relationship with it proves that to be true. Since my back surgery, I have been waking up every morning and spending time with God. Writing stuff down to Him. Asking Him questions. Thanking Him for stuff. Reading stuff about Him. Here's how I know I idolize food:

1. I look to food for comfort.
2. I need food to feel happy.
3. I plan my day around food.
4. I think about food. A lot.
5. I judge experiences based around food.
6. I look to food as the one thing that will always be there for me no matter what.
7. I rely on food.
8. I judge the health of my life based on the health of my relationship with food.

Now before you go thinking "this lady is crazy and unstable" - let's try this list again. This time, fill in the blank yourself:

1. I look to ______ for comfort.
2. I need ______ to feel happy.
3. I plan my day around ______.
4. I think about ______. A lot.
5. I judge experiences based around ______.
6. I look to ______ as the one thing that will always be there for me no matter what.
7. I rely on ______.
8. I judge the health of my life based on the health of my relationship with ______.

What's in that blank? Is it a job? A friend? A relationship? It's something. And whatever it is for each one of us, won't fill in the blank like it's supposed to. It won't fill that void like only God can. But this is one of those things that is easier said than done for me.

So the good news here...I'm working on it. Every day. I'm working on it. I have GREAT days where I kill it with the workouts and the right food and then I have days where I want to eat everything in sight. But pausing to think about why I want to eat is always helpful. I am learning so much from self-control it's unreal.

And since it's always fun to see what's been happening...here are some photos of the last week around here. It has been crazy. (Snowpacolypse, anyone?

Breaking it down at a YMCA event. Duh.

Stuck in the snow terror on Wednesday.

One good thing about extreme weather is that
it really brings people together. We are
in the back of a random neighbor's truck.

If you can't find a boyfriend, you can always
make one out of snow. He was destroyed
by neighbor kids an hour after this photo
was taken. Rude.

Cameron, me, and our "special" friend Derek.

The Profile of an Emotional Eater

This is a great, short, and did I mention GREAT article if you use food for emotional reasons like I do:



The Profile of an Emotional Eater | Shrink Yourself